Loneliness is a funny thing

Today, I went to Busch Gardens with one of my dear friends and had a wonderful time. There were so many things I would've written about, but one little seemingly insignificant part of my day, really struck me. :) So here goes nothin'.

     When I was waiting in line to ride Apollo's Chariot, I observed a cute couple. This couple in their late teens, was your typical, mushy-gushy teenage couple. She was a short, bubbly, blond, and he, a tall, tan, gorgeous athlete. They were "the perfect couple". As I stood there I couldn't help but overhear their conversation. She used the typical "I'm scared. I'm so sorry if I grab your arm during the ride" technique. Of course, he grinned and replied with a response along the lines of  "Sure, Don't worry. You have me with you". And they laughed and he grabbed her hand, as happy as could be.
 
     And here I, a fifteen year old freshman, have feelings bubble to the surface. They've always been there. Listening to this brief interchange sparked a loneliness in me. Just like every other person that has ever lived, the battle rages in my heart. There really is no reason for me to feel lonely. I have a wonderful church, great friends and an awesome family that surround me continually. While standing in this line, I was reminded of how my flesh can cry out for companionship. Of how, sometimes, I just want someone to hold my hand and tell me they'd stay with me.
   
     Our society continually tells us that we need a lover to feel complete. There's nothing wrong with having a person to love. That is not what I'm saying, just to be clear. That feeling of loneliness, if you don't have a special someone, can destroy you. Loneliness can cross the line to self-pity oh-so easily.
   
      In that hot, crowded line I came to somewhat of an....what do they call it??.. epiphany.. yes that's a good word. Probably just a big term for an idea, if you ask me. I realized that I have no right to pity myself. Look at the cross. Christ died for me and took all my sin and shame and here I am complaining about "being alone" or obsessing about the future. By dwelling on these feelings, I lose sight of my heavenly father.    
   
     I really don't even mean to have these feelings. I want to focus solely on Christ at this point in my life. In these weak moments of loneliness, I want to remember God. Maybe God places those lonely moments just to say, "Hey,you're lonely? I'm right here. Stop searching in the wrong place for acceptance. I love you more than any friend or lover could. Look to me, child".

Christ is my treasure and I am His.